Yuletide

 

Sweet warmth of embrace,

Calms down my year's disgrace;

As the suiting breeze of winter,

Falls back with my lost encounter.

Now to commemorate the past,

Thoughts from within couldn't last;

A paradise that before falters,

Today's heaven that I could just utter.

An ending of lust,

And beginning of youthful trust;

This world of mine that once collided,

Now's reborn at yuletide.

 

My Hero

I  Thought life is just for fun,

It came that I don't know where to run;

You're sitting there beside me,

Made me know life is not easy.

In many times I was down,

You're always there around;

Whenever I tried to give up,

You're there to cheer up.

I never been a perfect child,

But you're always there to understand;

Comfort me every time I'm blue,

Always saying "I'm here for you."

A simple thank you was not enough,

 To return your unchanging love;

I'm sorry, if I've hurt your feelings,

I love you my mother, my heroine.

♡ ♡ ♡

Why?

Why do we have radical feelings if it is right?

Why is there darkness leading us to fall lightly?

Why is life so unfair though they say it isn't?

Why does fulfillment leave something missing?

Why is there you and me but there can never be us?

Why do we fall in love when it doesn't seem to last?

Why do we have too feel when it ain't what we are?

Why are you so near but seems to be so far?

Why do we have to decide if we will just set aside?

Why do we have to love and not to be loved in return?

Why do we have make comrades and be betrayed in the end?

Why do we say we are good and rise up to pretend?

 

♡♡♡

Winter in My Soul

A broken and empty heart hiding inside,

Feeling lonely the day they set me aside,

Winter in my soul strikes back once more,

It stabbed my heart with ice frozen on the shore.

Having you all as part me,

Thinking all the memories you've shared with me,

How I loved those times you were so kind,

Then all of a sudden, you just changed your mind.

My dearest friends why did you leave me?

After all these years I kept you as my company,

I never leave you in vain,

But now you're giving me this kind of pain.

Do you know how much I treasure our friendship?

Precious moments in our intimate relationship,

But now what? It's making me sick,

Like the candle losing its wick.

I made you laugh but then you cry,

You said goodbye while I asked for another try;

I said, "can we still be friends 'till the end?"

You said nothing and walked away.

♡ ♡ ♡ 

April~ ...

A Life of Choice

There are always two roads to  be chosen,

What if one is broken?

Will you still take the wrong trial?

Or will you make another way?

Everywhere is full of silence and peace;

Which makes them see the smile on our lips;

Which we can feel that happiness,

And where we can say that we are blessed.

Trials, we cannot avoid,

At times, we're getting old,

As years go by,  we're getting old,

And we already need someone to hold.

What if your death is near to come?

One day you will rest and will be gone?

Will you just wait and sit down?

Or will you finish something you've done?

To live is a life of choice,

It's up to you if you want to rejoice;

Scream out loud to hear your voice,

And don't bother to make some noise....

♡ ♡ ♡ 

Have a great and nice day fellas :*

Thanks for dropping by

Sad Goodbye

 

I saw his face last night,

Holding his hands very tight;

It was so dark inside,

And only the moon gives light.

At that time, I asked him why,

But i guess he was so shy;

I did my best just to try,

But he replied me with a cry.

What happened my dear?

Is it true what you are telling?

If you just know what I feel,

It's like a bullet that hits my will.

Suddenly, tears fell from my eyes,

I wish this time will pass me by,

'Coz I am tasting a moment of cry,

The only word I heard is "Goodbye"

I'm Still Your Superman...

Ring ! Ring ! Ring ! .... Gosh! It's Monday morning. First day of classes and I'm late. Oh my! My friend is waiting for me. He'll be crazy and for sure, he will be mad of me just like what he always does.


I hurriedly walked towards him. I was few meters away from our meeting place but I could see him already. Was it really him? I couldn't be mistaken. I remembered the way he looks and he moves.
One proof was his hairstyle. It  looked like the spines of a dinosaur and I knew that he put lots of gel on it.
His name is Johan, my best friend. I gave him sweetest smile (✿◠‿◠)  but he replied a bitter pout >3< . This is it ! the machine gun will started blowing.

(✖╭╮✖) ヽ(｀Д´)ﾉ " Hey! Wonder Woman ! You are late for a hundred, thousand times. 

What do you want me to do, wait for you here until the end of the world? Can't you be punctual? ".

 " Don't get mad Superman. I'm sorry, okay? I promise to be early next time. Besides, you're getting ugly when you're angry. " Ծ_Ծ v(ಥ ̯ ಥ)v

 " Oh please! I'm sick of all your promises. Come on, Follow me. " 

We were always like that. Johan and I cannot stand a day without having misunderstandings. 

We always quarrel but we never let a day end without reconciling. He was my childhood friend. 

Ever since our Elementary days, we made sure that we're classmates. 

I still remember when I was assigned to a lower section, he requested his class adviser to let him join me on my class. He's always by my side in times when I needed him the most that's why I called him "Superman", my hero, my brother and my best friend. Since then, he called me "Wonder woman" in return.

According to him, his life is incomplete without me.

"Where are we going? We're supposed to go to school?"

"Mark texted me. He told me that there's no class today. 

They will just clean the room so let's just go there tomorrow."

"Where are we going now?"

"To the mall. I'll buy a pair of wrist watch for us. I'll teach you how to read a clock and come on time."

He bought me a personalized watch for me. It looked like a locket. 

On the other side is our picture and the other is the watch. On its bracelet, our names were written.  

That's how sweet he was and I was very blessed for having him as my friend.

I thought it was endless but a heart breaking truth torned my heart into pieces. (╥﹏╥)

A few months later, I have noticed that  he looked pale. I told him to see a doctor but he refused to follow my advices. Then, he started to be very nice and sweet. (｡◕‿◕｡)

 

He keeps on telling me how much he loves me and how much he was thankful of having me as his best friend. He also reminded me the laughters and the tears we've shared.

I felt quite uneasy because he was acting very strange. 

There were times that I saw him crying but he never mentioned the reason why.

That caused sleepless nights to me. (╥﹏╥)

Day passed and he started failing to attend our classes. I was too worried so, I decided to visit him in his house. I was shocked when i saw him lying down on his bed, very weak and his hair was falling.

Tears fell down on my face.(◕︵◕) o(╥﹏╥)o  

I'm his best friend yet I didn't know about it. He looked at me and asked me to sit beside him.

He wiped my tears and beg me not to cry because he feels sad when I'm crying.

"Why didn't you tell me?" I asked.

"Because I don't want you to worry about me.
I don't want you to stop your world just because I have a Leukemia."


He stared at me as if he will never see me again. Then I cried out loud.

I cannot stop my tears from falling from falling for I felt very useless that time.

I'm his Wonder woman and yet I cannot do anything to ease the pain that he's suffering.

"Don't feel helpless Trixie. I'm going to fight againts this disease.  I promised not to leave you so you don't have to be afraid. And even if I die, I'll be here in times that you need me."

He continued having his chemotherapy. I saw how bravely struggle from the pain and as his best friend, I will be strong for him. I never left him in those bad times, but the fate was not good to us.

His leukemia reached its fourth stage and the doctor said that he will only live for three months.

I wanted to lose hope that very moment. My world crashed but I was amazed on how he accepted it with full of courage. It's painful to see my best friend dying slowly but I pretended that I will be okay.

"I'm sorry for I can't live anymore. It's hard for me to leave because I know that you will be hurt. But I promised to guide and be with you always. Please don't forget how much I love you. 

Remember, I'm still your SUPERMAN."

"I will. If you really have to go, I understand. Don't worry about me. I'll be fine."

Then, I bid him my final hug. He seemed like he never wanted to go. 

I can feel how hard it was for him to breathe.

Hardly, he whispered to me, " I'm still your Superman." Then he gave his last breathe.

I cried with grief and I held him close to my arms. I wish I could turn back the time.

If only I have another chance, I would have given him all the best that I have.

It's really hard to lose a friend. I always tell myself that I also died the day he left. But life must go on even though the process of moving on is long and difficult.

Until now, I'm wearing the watch he had given me and every morning, I hurriedly run towards our meeting place, hoping to see him again once again. 

♡ ♡ ♡ 

 

Thanks for Viewing and reading this post of mine on my blog,   I hoped you enjoyed. Goodnight! :* ~ April...